I spend a fair amount of time being sad. I don’t intend to run my day like that, but it’s just what happens. If I were a character in a Jane Austen book I’m sure there would be reference to my ‘disposition’. It’s an annoying cloud that follows me around. On bad days it rains on me, I get all weighed down, I slow down. I long to stop. Sometimes I do. But mostly I walk around and many people don’t see the cloud because I’m so busy pretending that the sun is shining.
But even all wet, I can see that life really is beautiful. Amongst all of the sadness, amongst bad days at work, bad news and bad ideas, the world goes on. The ocean still grows wild and calm again, day turns to night, the weather changes, homemade raspberry and white chocolate muffins still make you feel GOOD, the birds still lay their eggs, creatures still crawl from the sea. Life goes on, we still evolve.
So I am trying to slow down and spend more time in the world. Not the world world as such, but in the world. I’m looking at more simple pleasures, time at the beach, growing things, making things, baking things in an effort to have the life I have always dreamed of, to feel content and fulfilled whilst also doing the day to day – going to work, picking up the dog poo, vacuuming and dusting and cleaning the toilet.
So this, is all about that.
